ONE OF THE BEST THINGS TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME
|—||Everyone, Pompeii, 79 A.D. (via ahkep)|
petition for a show starring melissa benoist and alex newell as marley rose and unique adams as katy perry and beyonce impersonators
yeah i was honestly expecting ~more from it in the moment given the parallel with will/emma earlier in the episode. also, sneaking off *just* to kiss, when the night is all about having fun and cementing friendships and making memories? well maybe blaine interrupted them before they got too far
but ‘more raunchy’ would make more sense of blaine’s (over) reaction, perhaps, too
Fic: Family Values (9/14)
Summary: Blaine’s parents are away from home a lot. Which he’s never really thought of as a problem, until now. (Goes AU during and after 4x22)
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Chapter summary: “…he settled back down against his pillow and reached for Kurt’s hand again. Which was of course when Kurt woke up.”
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Blaine woke up in the dark with a jolt, his heart pounding.
The apartment was silent: no knocking in the water pipes, no sirens from the street. But something had startled him. He breathed deep.
I love this. I love the atmosphere and the feeling of it… I don’t know how to describe. But I love this story. And these boys, together in the undefined dark, like this. <3.
This is a very good topic for discussion, honestly.
1. tickled that the all-girl trio had more sex and relationships between them than the mixed-gender one did :). and happy that glee continues to give me all sorts of things to notice like that…
2. cheerios were the power of the school. that uniform used to be like armor. now it’s a costume….
3. sue’s principal of the whole school, now, not just leader of the cheerios. i guess they’re all under her (dubious) protection.
4. also tickled that sam chose to put on the girls’ uniform just, y’know, for fun. and he’s what counts as, i guess, a popular jock type right now… and blaine and tina are his best friends… oh mckinley, how much you have changed :).
5. (and that’s why i’m ready for them to leave <3)
I really struggle to read writing without capital letters (I have some visual processing issues) so I’ve been wonderful about your style. Thank you for explaining it.
I know some people do but I didn’t know if anyone specifically was reading me… okay, I’m sorry. I can’t promise 100% but I will *try* to be better about just that aspect. (Because it’s a relatively simple thing so maybe I can do it.) <3.
brackets - i assume you mean parentheses, not square or angle brackets - are generally ‘this is less important and/or relevant’ but the reason i use them so much is more or less ‘i am weirdly insecure about the general importance and/or relevance of my opinions but i want to write them ANYWAY so one of the compromises that enables me to do that is apparently right now putting things in brackets ALL THE TIME.’
that is also why so many sentences that start with no capitals and using all-caps and asterisks around things more or less interchangeably for emphasis. and, i suppose, all the line breaks. which are somewhere between periods and paragraph breaks i guess and allow for fewer transitions?
i’m editing myself less because editing is HARD (not technically, but psychologically, somehow, cause it’s another hurdle) and tends to involve a really large percentage of just not posting things at all (and i have enough percentage of that already, invisible as i know it is to everyone else). i suppose that’s why all the line breaks too - and extra em-dashes ;) - because these things aren’t really organized, and yes, i *can* do organized prose when i have to, but….
*shrug.* this is how my writing looks when i’m writing notes or thoughts out for myself. it indicates the things it needs to indicate, (to me), it leaves out some of the things it doesn’t, and yes theoretically i could go back and just capitalize things but the fact is i can’t, i’ll fidget and edit and delete and probably half the time or more just give up altogether and it’s just not worth it.
and i figure it’s comprehensible enough to everyone else too.
We are training artists here, Mr. Hummel. Performers who are not afraid to show their vulnerability, and yes, even their heart.
Kurt is SO MUCH HEART. But he’s protective of it. He mostly only shows it in safe places. By himself, or maybe in the choir room. His first NYADA audition (like his West Side Story audition) was an incredible performance. But it didn’t show his heart like “Being Alive” did.
(i mean, as i’ve said before, i’m completely not here for the triumph is lesser than pain idea - not pointing that at you, liz - but also - )
this is so true and i love it? one could even say i’m protective of it, i guess ;). that your heart is yours and you don’t have to share it with the world….
(they will probably just eat it) (i mean what) (or throw it on the ground)
(now it occurs to me, out of nowhere, just how much of a contrast this makes with blaine. who’s sharing his heart - heart does not just mean pain! - with the audience every time, because that’s the point, and needs to get it back)
anyway, yes. one could say it’s about safe spaces but i think it’s really more about… none of those songs (ignoring aiwnsg, which really doesn’t emotionally fit)… were voluntary. they were in *response* to something. *including* being alive - i still think carmen provoked the pain there that she needed to see.
will kurt ever learn how to act, i wonder? because pamela lansbury is great and he’s having fun and… you do need something more than ‘having fun,’ i think. or at least he does, in his art, if maybe not everyone, if only because he’s so good at it…
but i still don’t think that means you have to *be* vulnerable, even if the pain you choose to open a window on is real. there are walls and walls….
blaine singing piano man at the diner
kurt starting pamela lansbury
santana auditioning for fanny
(rachel walking out of the apartment) (no that’s not quite the same) (but it’s related, it’s close!)
sam coming to new york to the modeling agency
things, things, things….
even when you have a dream, when a dream comes true - dreams, by their nature, aren’t as big or complex as life
finding your work is slow and hard even when parts of it are also almost ridiculously fast and easy. and it’s so much of a story
and i have a lot of feelings okay
For Lent I’m just giving up in general
for anyone who wants in.
In a universe where triad (three-person) marriages are considered the cultural ideal and are also arranged by the government, Blaine spends most of senior year hoping and planning that he’ll be assigned to marry Kurt and Rachel.
Instead, he’s assigned to Tina and Sam, all of whom are great friends but don’t really want to be married to each other.
Meanwhile, in New York, Kurt and Rachel are assigned to each other, but instead of Blaine, they’re assigned to some New Jersey kid by the name of Elliot.
Kurt and Blaine still love each other. Tina still loves Blaine. Sam is still straight, Blaine is still gay. Hummelberrygilbert is…equally interesting to consider, especially when it turns out Kurt and Rachel genuinely like Elliot, even though they planned to hate his guts on principle.
(proceeds to discuss in the sort of way that means don’t let me play with your fic ideas ever but if you don’t want them! - )
because of course i can easily find both of those trios interesting based on canon dynamics but WHY ARE THERE ASSIGNED MARRIAGES and HOW DO THEY WORK and why can’t you sign up for them pre-emptively if you have a trio set up at least
and my mind jumps to world building them alongside assigned jobs and housing and most important and relevantly CITY assignments and …. oh god now i want a variant where people don’t get assigned marriages or similar but they do get assigned… roommates? Who are more kind of like dorm-mates or something even more intense. Because e.g. of course all the NYADA (analog) people live together all the time and work together all the time and it’s not that they’re actually, technically, forbidden from having relationships outside of that group but it’s kind of like, what when? People do go outside of the school (… thing) for hookups sometimes but that’s pretty much it.
And okay why trios. WELL. You can’t just say ‘because we have couples now and three is just as arbitrary as two’ - two is the simplest, smallest, unit, after one. SO. If I were gonna do this as a worldbuilding angle, I’d say that couples… aren’t forbidden, but they’re seen as incomplete. TOO small, not resilient enough, each of you is relying way too much on just one other person. You need at LEAST three to be a recognized stable group. (So maybe it’s not Required, but there are Serious Benefits to be gained from grouping up - like we have with marriage but more so.) … Anyway, quads and larger groups are definitely allowed, they’re just not as common because getting even MORE people to agree to all of each other, heh. Network-style arrangements of course would not fit the hypothesized bureaucracy of this world at all ;).
ANYWAY. I have wandered way too far off the course of the story here. The point would be… it really is a distance issue, just like it was in canon. But differently. Blaine was planning to go to NYADA, like Kurt and Rachel, when he graduated high school, and they were waiting for him. But Important And Possibly Dangerous Events Happen during his senior year, and It Is Decided that he - and Sam and Tina and in fact the whole graduating class who’d hoped to get out of Lima - are Needed there, and will have to stay.
(Brittany’s the only one who leaves. She just - disappears, one day, in the middle of all the mess. They do find out eventually she’s okay and Out There, at MIT analog after all, although no one quite knows why or how.) (And if some people have suspicions that she was a factor in Dangerous Events, and other people suspect that she already played her part in fighting them, well, no one left in Lima really knows what went down; they just know who she is.)
(Artie is pretty hurt, by the way, that Tina doesn’t try to include *him.*)
Anyway. You can have sex with whoever you want. (So long as you’re really careful not to spread STDs. Or have kids.) You can have *relationships* with whoever you want, technically….
But it’s hard. Because you can’t move. You certainly can’t change your schedules around, or your jobs, or your Important Obligations. Blaine and Kurt can *love* each other all they want… but as long as Nightbird’s needed in Ohio, Blaine can’t *ever* go to New York. Kurt… might have some dispensation for people who left the place where they were raised to go visit *their family,* for a few days, maybe a week, every year. And that’s it.
And even if you find someone better for you in the same city… you’re always hoarding hours in rooms that each of you shares with other people; you can have the thrill of ~romance, whatever that means, and I bet, in a way that’s reminiscent of courtly love, a lot of people do, at least for some time in their lives.
But your home is always going to be the people you signed up to share it with, because that’s how you get a home.